Sunday, November 25, 2012 '
Let me tell you a story.
Even if you see this, please understand that i am never gonna mention any name.
At the age when we still have to learn how to write each Chinese word we learnt in rows
I have a friendship that was precious and brought me happiness.
She introduce me to many new things and we spent time together alot.
Then one day she didnt talk to me.
Since that day, she didnt want to talk to me anymore.
Because i always have her, i didnt really mix with any other people in the class.
This results in my talking to random classmates all the time.
And because they already have their own friends, i was just some normal friend
I am like a lamp post all the time.
I joined random group of friends as well.
Even when i have friends, at least i think i can call them as my friends
I do not believe in having BEST friends anymore.
Even until now.
Even when we are now talking to each other.
Even when i can let all of past go.
When some people ask who are my best friends, i will say i have none.
The term 'best friend' is too vague, too unreal for me.
In high school, there are many people who lets me think i can trust in friendship once more.
Meeting them in different parts of my high school life made it more interesting.
I call people these who are precious to me as they are.
Siblings, buddies, friends.
The most precious people i have here in England, i called them as my housemates.
I mean, we share a HOUSE together.
If that is not good enough, what else is?
We look out for each other all the time.
But most of us in this house are unsociable :P
Now these precious people are spread all over the world.
Even when we dont really talk to each other
Even when we are this far away from each other
I will still regard you all as my precious people.
Forever and ever.
To be honest.
I like how you gave me a pat on the head without saying anything.
Because at that moment i just thought
'Oh what the hell, just do it, what is it that you cant do JV?!?!'
I was relieved that the attendant was helpful.
Then you did just that.
It made me felt more confident than i already am.
Thursday, November 22, 2012 '
有些事我还是挺佩服
不管这一个人在你口中有多重要
朋友的事你还是会为他们保密
不会因为这个特别的人而破例告诉他
我觉得我会接受
只是时间上的问题
还有需要我那心理准备
因为那时候虽然说的是拒绝
但是我们现在好像是口是心非
不要被我的不可以和不要压制住
反抗我
对我老实
Friday, November 16, 2012 '
我找到了你真正的心在哪
到头来 我还是代替品
是一个你刚好觉得可行的人
但我始终都不是那一个人
所以别再纠缠下去了
我只怕我自己会受不了
也只怕你不会开心
Wednesday, November 14, 2012 '
I dont know what can happen between us.
But i still am not able to believe you are not joking.
And i still think you are acting on a whim.
If i can say okay without hesitating, then things will only work well between us.
So if i cant proudly announce this to everyone, then you wont be happy with me.
Even when we promised not to be different
It is no longer what it used to be.
The normal kind, non-speechless kind and the kind when being ignored doesnt mean anything.
I think the day you give everything up, will be the day when everything ends between us.
Friendship and all.
This is my current iPhone lock screen (:
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the day was beautiful even when it was cold, then it chose to rain :/
therefore the face xD
Tuesday, November 6, 2012 '
For some reason, i am touched.
But also, i still cant trust you when you said that.
But honestly, i am very sorry for saying things like that to you.
The only problem i have with friends is i tend to tell them what i think about them when i get close to them.
Either they will fight back like ZhengYi did
Or some will just agree to it.
But you reacted differently.
For one second, i seriously thought im screwed.
I thought i would seriously lose a friend that was exceptionally nice.
Thank you for forgiving me.
You will never imagine how relieved I was.
Thank you for everything, honestly.
And thank you for replying to that question in my mind back then.
You ended my misery with just one sentence.
So thank you.
And im really really really sorry.
Sunday, November 4, 2012 '
When i treat someone the way i usually treat a close friend
They made fun of it
When i tried not to be too familiar with a person
They still do tease me.
Excluding no one at all.
I cant control the way I react to these.
But I know what they dont know.
He is not here for me.
He is here for them.
But because we speak to each other often
I tend to treat him as a guest rather than someone i want out of the house as soon as possible.
I am trying not to be rude.
But you will never see how rude it is to be ignoring a person who came all the way up here.
So you all can continue your teasing.
I would rather not be disrespectful to a friend.
