Monday, January 31, 2011 '

宇多田ヒカル - Goodbye Happiness

After the sweet candy has disappeared
A sad looking little boy
On a cloudless Summer Day
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Sunburnt hands and feet
Careless if her white one piece gets dirty
An unconscious paradise
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I waited after the dream, but nothing
Then one day, I learned of your name
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So Goodbye Loneliness
Singing along to a love song
Reflected in your eyes, I’m laughing
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So Goodbye Happiness
We can’t return to those times
When we were naive and energetic
But that’s okay
Love me
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You can’t overthink it or get too desperate
Don’t fool yourself
It’s a tough world
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When humans find themselves all alone
Is when they realize the meaning of love
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These fading passing days
Let me hear a gentle song
Do you still remember, to this day
The way we felt around the time we met
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So Goodbye Innocence
We can’t return to those times
When we were naive and energetic
It’s all your fault
Kiss me
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Oh everything goes round and around
Oh Darling Darling I’m not going to move on to someone else
Only you
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Wouldn’t it be great if we could just live the way we are?
At crucial moments, my other self blocks my way.
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So Goodbye Happiness
I want to return to those times
When we were naive and energetic
Baby, just one more time
Kiss me
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(:

Saturday, January 29, 2011 '

那天妈妈说我以后再也不可以出去了
期待着的东西这么多不哭才怪咯

那时候的确有人下命令不准动扯铃
结果真的是不动

全部人坐在地上看人家彩排

我知道不可能在预定时间回到学校

就跟妈妈延迟一个小时

如果那天不是妈妈千吩咐万吩咐

我才不会问你到底吃不吃

如果你没有说有去吃

那我真的宁愿之后自己吃

过后呢

我也不懂做了多少件废事

听了多少句废话

虽然我也不想

但我已经摆明一个很臭的脸

我必须准时回学校

结果下起雨来

等到我发觉又要跟妈妈延迟时

她已经在学校了

我不但离学校很远

我还是有必须要做的事

至少还要一个小时

你觉得我有可能不被骂吗?

很多时候

请不要以为事情过去了就没事了

有很多时候

并不是只有扯铃重要

那次迟了两个小时回家

不只是得到了挨骂

也让妈妈对你们失去了信任

顺便让我醒觉

你们对时间概念一直存在的问题

并不是小事

我知道妈妈对一些事情会有偏见

而且是有点严重

但是很多时候

妈妈是对的

所以我就说

早知道的话

我宁愿在那一天

饿死

也不要跟你们去吃

I want you,

I need you,

My love is true~

-SHINee Girl

Yesterday was an unexpected day.

Some things failed, some just went on fine.

And yesterday was the day we celebrate for Nic's birthday.

And Shaun's farewell.

So sad laa.

I haven't know him long enough to say goodbye yet :/

But since he was so lucky to get into the school

I wish him all the best.

And i believe he can do well. (;

I thought i wouldnt miss him that much.

But after yesterday, i think i really will.

And i didnt went for Nic's Birthday cake and lunch.

Because i had tuition D:

But then i went around 6 after Chem and until 11pm something.

Its been a while.

But since i had the chance

So why not use it to the max? :)

I didnt know you were like this.

I guess im a sat bai friend for knowing you for so long.

But yeap, i like it when everyone was being friendly.

Why do i always not bring my camera when everyone is okay

And bring it when everyone is being dodgy -.-

Yesterday i wasnt being a good friend to Vincent.

I feel so bad.

But i really didnt know that everyone would be so different.

Vincent, I wont ask you out again, i promise.

Until you do.

Besides, i finally picked up the phone call i was looking forward to.

Not to crap happily, but to talk coldly.

Im such a bad person.

But there really is a limit to how long someone can stand being good.

I want you to know you are at fault.

And i want you to know how serious the matter is.

I dont want you to think that me and my family are oh-so-kind all the time.

When its too much, i will do what i think i should.

Though it might not be too angelic.

Friday, January 21, 2011 '

I watch Crash in tuition on Wednesday.
I've seen the movie before on tv.
Recommended by the same teacher (:

The movie is about several stories that interweave in Los Angeles
Involving a collection of inter-related characters
A police detective with a drugged out mother and a thieving younger brother
Who is constantly theorizing on society and race with his friend
The white district attorney and his irritated and pampered wife
A racist white veteran cop who disgusts his younger partner
A successful Hollywood director and his wife
A Persian-immigrant father who bought a gun
A Hispanic locksmith and his young daughter
And so many more.

"Moving at the speed of life, we are bound to collide with each other."

The movie is full of racism.
But sometimes its the situation that makes people like that.
I like the way each story has a twist in it.
Tho some are good and others are sad
I like the movie alot.

"You know who you are. But you dont." (:

Wednesday, January 19, 2011 '

Grandma's 99th Birthday

Luncheon at Tronoh

My new USB Speaker.

Name : CoolerJV (:
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We are so different from each other

I still dont know why we became close friends.

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I understand that you lack of spotlight

And i know how you feel about both teams.

I realised im really not like you.

The way you think, the way u decide something.

For me, it's hard to accept your way as it is.

But i think im doing my best.

I want the best for you.

At the same time i want what i had in mind.

I guess one of us will have to feel disappointed.

When you tell me things, i know it's not right.

But at the same time, i can't tell you it's wrong.

I know i can't help both of you all at the same time.

Yet, i always hope i wont have to hurt anyone's feelings.

That's totally impossible.

I really wish to understand myself first

Before i start taking sides.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011 '

I dont remember the last time i got into a bad mood because of you.

And i dont remember the last time i dreamt of you.

How are you??

I want a long reply, with lots of smileys. :]

But that is so not you.

Still, how i wish....

I dont know what to say to you now.

Just that if i could, i would scold you.

How could you?

ALL of you!!

The more you dont treasure friendship

The more i hate you all

Yet that more i miss you all.

I feel so guilty

Now that i no longer get mad over these things.

And i no longer wish to tie a string on you

To pull you back to me.

All i hope for

Was for you to move on and do your best

But not leaving us at the same time.

Im not as sadist as i was already. x)

So how bout you?

I dont want reunions.

I want get-togethers.

It has been a while.

But i really miss you right now.

So, do great, okay? (:

Sunday, January 16, 2011 '

Hello Blog!
It was my 17th birthday!
I'm so olddd D;
But im finally legal to learn driving! :D
But it will still have to wait till after SPM. ;(

Friday was Hari Gerko!
Had to go for two performance
Which we had less than 1 hour to prepare.
Of coz char laaa.
But bcoz of my tailbone condition, Mun's thumb condition and Lynn's stomach condition (LOL)
We let ourselves go.
Suan le baa. (:
But i found a few Form 1 girls interested when i was practising.
It was not bad that time.
I hope they will turn up...
At least when all of us are gone
Someone who likes diabolo will still be here right? ;]

Received Hamsa's present on Monday -.-
She said she cannot keep surprises
So she had to give me earlier xD
And then Wei's and Niah's cards on Friday
I love the way Niah wrote so many things on the card! (:
And the wedding part was loved! :DDD
So sweeet laa :D
And Wei's way of promoting her handsome dad and cute grandma!
I love the way she's proud of her family :]
After that... SerLyn's box!
Its cute! Im still searching for a place to put the box :D
From Vincent, of coz, he forgot my birthday!
100% sure. Haiz this kawan -.-
But he called me to talk crap, like finally!
So that will be my bday present. (:

Went for my 5th visit to the hospital at 15th Jan!
The doctor said i wont have to go see him anymore :D
Then i went shopping for CNY clothes with Mom!
And then tea at 5.
And then at night we went to Grandma's for steamboat!
It was deelish ;d
We ate alot yesterday O;
I love all the presents i received! (;
Coz all of them are so Loved :DDD
And for those who didnt give me any
Its okay!
Coz its your love and friendship that counts! :)

When received the sms from JiaJun
It made me feel so happy
Since it has been a while we last see each other.
And he typed ALOT!
With the caps and all.
Love it so much (:

Thanks guys!
I love you all!

Sunday, January 9, 2011 '

Quite disappointed now that school has start.
Coz i think my friend left us for new friends.
As usual tho.
But i seriously dont like it.
Everytime he doesnt call anymore
I will know why.
Usually its girlfriend, new target, something like that.
And everytime we found out he doesnt tell us something
We usually get mad at him
Chase him around to get his phone
And forced the truth out of him.
Like the time he went into hospital for operation.
We know only around a month later.
Why dont let us know lah why? -.-

But this time i really dont know why.
But i miss him. A bit.
And i surely hate him.
How can he do that to us?!
But i will finish up his card.
Coz i dont want to be like him. (:

I wont ask you out for movie again.
Unless i really have to.
You useless kawan.
That time i heard you laughing at my retorts
Coach said you were rolling at the backseat laughing.
Its so easy to imagine it
That i become alot smarter that day ;D

Oh, you know, you know, you know, i'd never ask you to change
If perfect is what you searching for then just the same

Lived a few days in awkwardness -.-
But all of them are not as bad as night time.
Lying down takes away the tiredness.
But then, when you cant lie on your back
Sleeping time was a torture.
Coz i cant lie on one side too much.
I will get leg cramps from that.
So for a few ten minutes
I will need to force myself to toss my whole body to another side.
So i didnt get much sleep from that.
But its so much better last night :D

YAY! (: