Friday, February 17, 2012 '

Was a tiny bit happier.
Even though i know how he chooses to be seen with the pretty ones more.
I finally know and can feel the friendship between us.
Whether it is out of responsibility or whether he really wants to help me.
I'm slightly touched. And am very thankful (:
I know you will be back to what you were like before, but at least i know you are a friend.
Somehow, satisfied (:

Speak to me often.

I know you wont forget me.

But i'm really afraid to lose you X;

I had a purrrrfect fringe that day,

at least before the wind ruin it :P

We went to London for a 2 days 1 night trip for half-term (:

Main purpose?

SHOPPING and FOOOOOOOD!

And of coz, meeting up with CHS-ians (:

Manda! Re Gin! Tze Gee! And of coz, Kah Heng :DD

We met them at Euston Station.

And then, we went to China Town. For Malaysian food (:

And we saw an Award Winning Gay Bar! But there aren't many people inside.

After that we went to Oxford Street, to do what?

Shop. (:

I wanted to buy a trench coat that day, but couldnt find one that looks different from those that my friend has :P

In the evening, we went to the biggest bookstore in London : Foyles

Which is SO 'Tze Gee' xD

And then we went to Malaysian Hall for dinner (:

I ate nasi lemak and teh tarik :d

After that i went back to the Travelodge Hotel in Waterloo with Kah Heng.

It was scary because he scared me -.-

I was very confident that we would reach our hotel safe, but he said i should be afraid!

And he asked me to look at the guy behind us after we left the train so i was really suspicious ._.

Made me super aware for nothing.

After that we went for desserts at Leicester Square.

The night view was really amazing!! ;D

And of coz, Haagen Dazs is always amazing :d

That night the guys bought beer.

And i tried :P

They played 'chor dai dee' with it D:

Luckily, they were really kind to me, and they didnt let me lose alot of times.

So i didnt get drunk or anything (:

But the smell of alcohol, agggh :P

The next day was shopping till the end of the day man D:

We had Chinese food for brunch.

And then we went to Oxford Street again.

There is this super nice Nike Town place, which has amazingly nice design o.o

What below, is the chandelier at one of the escalator ceiling.

Watch closer and you will see all the shoes

and skipping ropes, and basketball hoops and also

tennis balls D:

After that I went to Covent Garden to get my iPhone 4S (:
I paid RM300 extra for the Apple Care :/
I thought i was really stupid because it was such a big amount of money D:
But then someone assured me that i spend money on something that is worth it.
So i was a little more happier (:
(Really wanted to cry when i left the place lol)
And whatever some of the friends said to me made me wanted to cry more.

After dinner, we went to the King Cross Station's Platform 9 and 3/4 :DD
But it was just a small wall with a trolley stuck to it so there was anything much to see :/
We somemore went into the real Platform 9 and the workers told us where else to go instead :P
Then while waiting for the train, i went to Paperchase.
Where they sell awesome stuffs!! (:
AND i bought a iPhone holder :

Doesnt care much on whether its worth it or not :P

But it's PURPLE!!!!! <3

Promised not to spend anymore money on things that i dont need :/

Just to make up for the £60 that i used.

Sunday, February 12, 2012 '

Nothing can change my love for apples :D

Just like the way nothing can change the way i am.

Honestly and truly, i want to be a very different person here in a new place.

I want to experience new stuffs, things i wouldnt do back in Malaysia.

But I am a coward.

I ran away from making decisions.

Especially on things that i really want to do.

It will take a long time for my new colleges mates to really get to know me and like me for who i am.

Just like the way, most of my closest friends did.

I will still keep things to myself, and continue to be the girl who doesnt need people's help.

Honestly, they are kind to me.

And i am kind to them too.

But i know it is not the real kind of friendship yet.

Just pure politeness.

Like what the Chinese senior told me.

'I smiling to you out of politeness.'

It hurts, kinda.

Oh but who cares, I dont know your name and you dont know mine.

We will be polite to each other until you are gone.

Which seems to be real sad.

Saturday, February 4, 2012 '

In my lounge suit.

(I think that is what it is called)

I sleep and walk around in the hostel in this (:

I bought lots of food today!

Two packets of instant noodles :P and then one can of Wong Low Kat xD Im having slight flu now. And then, one cadbury nuts and Strepsils ;D And today i da bao-ed Chinese food! Because we found out everything is microwaved in our canteen and the food is getting worse, so after going to the bank today we went shopping! (:

I think im coping okay. I got quite nice results for Physics and Chemistry test from last week! And i even get a merit note for doing my homework perfectly (not really) and excellent results. Somemore for the practical test for titration today i get quite nice readings :D So happy! Hehs. But i really really dont know how to understand my chemistry bonds D: Totally falling asleep when my tutor was explaining :\ Luckily i am not the only one who does not understand what the teacher is saying :P

Hip-Hop Street Dance Classes. ;| I seriously want. But no way. At least not this year i think. Instead of joining volleyball, which i initially thought i would, i joined basketball instead. -.- I can see how noob i am weih D: Totally like an idiot. And i went jogging with the athletics every Sunday morning, in which i ended up teman-ing those who can't run and playing around in the playground xD And i seriously, miss playing diabolo. I really felt like teaching the European guy abit of skills, just to borrow his diabolo to play. :P

But there is a really big racecourse (I can never take a photo with every part of the greens in it), and i cant roll and flip and play diabolo anyway i want. :/ I regret not bringing my diabolos with me, seriously. Nevermind, i will find things to occupy myself with. (Like staring at handsome boys no lah joking)

Place a glass of water outside the house and it will form ice. That is how cold it is D: I like the cold, but my body doesnt. :/ Aiyoyo.

Thursday, February 2, 2012 '

Getting to know my roommate’s friend is amusing.

I know who he is, but he doesn’t know who i am. I am always tempted to say ‘hi’ to him :P But i never did. I helped her Whatsapp him bcoz i was using her phone and it was regarding to something i had to ask him. He knows im the ‘girl who plays tennis’ -.- Thanks to KharWei Yap (: But he was very unfriendly!

He nods whenever i greet him. NOD, FOR GOODNESS SAKE. What the hell is that?! D: And then he never says hello back but straight shot into random questions and silence. That seems, super unfriendly to me... I was really pissed honestly. And i actually asked my roommate whether he dislike me for some reason or anything. ._.But she is really innocent and kind, and she wasn’t there, so she didnt know what happened also. And he then never speak to me anymore -.- I think i feel very childish for being upset over this but then, actually im just more determined to make me choy me lol.

Maybe years and years later, i will ask him whether he hated me when i first know him. (: Like what i did to ZhengYi before i left :P I asked him what i did to make him hate me so much. But ZhengYi said he didnt :D

But he reminded me of my friends whenever i go on a movie outing. I think that my buddies are so much more friendlier than he was. And im so proud of them. :D But i really really did wish that i had someone to depend on over here too, to have them reachable here too. To give me guidance, to introduce me to things i don’t know. If only you guys like studying overseas, which somehow seemed impossible now and forever.

I don’t want to throw you away like you did to me, but you are making it easy for me to. I don’t want to be the ungrateful kind of person, please for once, reply me (: For the many many years to come, i still want to be the friend that would remember you when everyone expect the worse.

30/1/12

That someday ago, i realised the reason of my friend’s confession. Of coz, i didn’t know what to do at all. I was VERY lost, felt like dying and super frustrated too. But my friend said that i mustn’t let him wait for nothing, so i decided to tell. Made things clearer than ever. What i am disappointed in is, how he doesn’t care about me. You know, even when i am this far away, friends chat with me through wall posts and messages, and sent me lots of love. But you, you didn’t even ask me if im coping okay, or ask if it’s cold over here. Not even a word. Made me wonder if you are telling the truth when you said you love me. There are a lot of things that i noticed since they day you said that to me, like how you never cared when i was facing something major, how inconsiderate of you to tell me that FEW DAYS BEFORE SPM. Even now. Not that i want you to love me or anything, but at least, we were friends for this long!!

Im afraid that i will become a shopaholic :X

I went to town today with my roommate and some of the guys. And i bought alot of stuffs!!! Okay lah, not really alot, just quite abit. Bought a wool shirt to cover up my super tight Uniqlo-long-sleeved shirts (hide my fats), and long wool shirt which cover until my butt xD and then one roll sleve tee, each costs £5 (: Should be okay gua~ And then after that i bought face cream for the cold weather and a leave-on conditioner spray... I swear that i will only shop once a month, and each time not more than £25 :D God bless that i can keep that promise. :P

I think that all guys are the same. They only give the pretty girls attention :X It’s the same all the time, everywhere. They act very gentlemen to them , and help them all the time, and let them walk in front, etc etc. And then they only give attention to prettiest of the ugliest when things seemed to get a little unfair. And then, they go back to the same ._. That’s not the worst. Seeing the friend that i thought would actually keep me company for a bit (or give me a little bit of attention) fully ignore me, like how i actually thought he would, was the worst of the worst. It’s not like i care anyway, but it really really really REALLY did hurt :/

All the time, when the wind blows, or when the weather gets cold, i actually wished that they are here to hug me, to drape their hands over my shoulders, and also to let me hug their waists... >.< I can finally feel loneliness, to want to return to their side, but no, im sure im strong enough to last for these few years. I WILL be independent! :D Just like how i walked back and fro the street of my boarding house alone until im very sure i will get lost. It’s starting to become a habit, walking alone, that is :x This is the last day i will act like a tourist, i will have to cope with all the homework that are bound to arrive very VERY soon, and get used to the cold weather, and also get my Achievement Record Book done well (It’s a book where we can put in whatever we think is relevant, and it will be used as a reference when our recommendation letter is prepared by the teachers for uni)

Much things to do i tell you. Really wanna stay a tourist here and shop all day. :x but no, i wont. I will learn to be good and mature (:

9/1/12

The internet connection sucks. But it was fine this morning, but then everyone didn’t online at that time. This is actually the time that my kawans might be online-ing. I wanna cry die le T_T

So i actually wrote this in Microsoft Word first.

I received a cd from my dear seniors. Honestly, there is much stuff that made it a little not so meaningful. They used all the photos i took -.- If they bothered to take some photos and didn’t post it up in Facebook, it would have been a great surprise. But they used my photos, and edit them. Well, what they edited made me laugh alot. It was so funny :D but after that they used a quick song, and one of the ones that i didn’t really like from my favourite Korean band lol. But it’s a CATCHY song. I mean, who would cry to that. -.-

And then out popped one of the funniest guys -.- Teoh Jen Tat. He ‘wiped tears’ and then talked alot of sad but funny things with a straight face. And then he said bye. And then out popped one of the guys i miss most, Timothy. With no sound. So damn torturing i tell you D: I tried everything. Even reading his lips. But, they didn’t make sense at all. Then i got Zheng Yi to send me the original video. But it didn’t have audio too. Goddammit...

Gone through alot of trouble trying to get to know what he said... -.- But finally decided to try using QuickTime Player, and it worked! xD Well, i was touched that he gone through the trouble to take that video, against the light -.- Well, he seemed to be embarrassed about it, but i think it’s cute! xD

Honestly, i didn’t felt like crying at all. But what MunMun wrote in her blog made me wanted to... What lah you, say dao i so important xD But i can tell you that what i gave someone is shorter than short. I don’t even know what to write to her -.- The second thing that made me wanna cry is seeing my mom cry. She is so cute lah, she cried when she sees me, and then she cried again when i said goodbye. -.-

I think im kinda fine living alone, but the only problem is i don’t know how to make myself drink more water, eat more fruits, eat less meat, and exercise more, having a healthy lifestyle. This is all like a dream to me, like a long-term camp where i can go out to the town whenever i like, go walk anywhere whenever i want, and walk alone to dinner -.- It’s always like that. I really can’t believe school starts on Monday, it felt like we are here to be on holiday, you know. But it’s not, so i think i will be quite stressful then. Haiz. How ah how?

8/1/12