Sunday, September 30, 2012 '

There is a reason why i chose badminton.

This is the only sports activity my friends know how to play and is willing to teman me to go.

Also, it is fun because i can play with my friends and laugh between ourselves.

And because i said i would go.

Honestly, it was okay.

Sometimes my @goodfriend will offer to play double with us and tolerate our noobness.

And i had loads of fun, and its not even tiring for me.

But, i can't even seemed to enjoy it now.

I walked away from the sports centre each time with the urge to punch someone.

Or i will want to walk far away from someone as soon as possible.

And it always feels like the end of Sunday when i go for badminton.

I mean, yes, you are supposed to be kinder to girls coz they are super weak.

But no, it doesnt mean you hold back that much.

It is not even fun that way.

And it is so damn obvious that you wanna get away from this pair of noobie girls as soon as possible.

Oh and, smashing all the time is a no-no.

Even people with calmness like I do, will flare up that way.

AND. Netting all the time aint that cool too.

All the time.

I wonder if you are still back here now

Will it make all of these so much better than it is at the moment.

But no.

I shouldnt be getting used to this all the time.

在这种某些时候
我真的会想
我到底是不是太好心了啊

我的室友毫不犹豫地说 YES
我是在帮陌生人
但是若陌生人是不错好朋友的朋友
我有理由不帮吗
我还帮了一个在上半年对自己人态度最差的女生呢
我反而觉得我有能力帮为什么不帮呢
至少到了某一天我不会后悔我没有做到

而且我欠了他一餐和一次看戏
这次又让他欠我一个人情也不错

有时想起来会觉得我们之间很乱乱到分不清
但是若这是我们的友情
那么就让它乱下去吧

我哦是这个家中的父亲
因为我很勇敢地抓起昆虫丢进马桶
也很 man 地叫困在厕所的朋友站到一边
然后用手肘把门撞开

Sunday, September 23, 2012 '

So, this is the end of my second week back in Northampton.

The moment i reached the airport, i actually felt really really relieved.
The 13 hours that i spent in the Dubai International Airport was the most-boring time of my life.
I never wasted this much time in a place before.
And also, always being aware, not being able to sleep peacefully and keeping an eye on the time.
All of these, are something i never wanted to face ALONE.
But i am seriously proud to say, I SURVIVED! (:

My little friends kept me company as they themselves were transiting or waiting to fly.
Also, i am glad to have met kind people along the way.

Northampton is so far the same.
I am living in a new place at the moment (:
It has actually quite alot of problems when we first arrived.
But after my efficient housemates and their (Y) tidiness, my senior house looks more and more like home and it is a nice place to come back to after a long day.
I have yet to cook for myself.

My first and second week has been extremely loooooooooong. It actually was just a week , but it felt like ages.
And all the rustiness of my brain! It is really getting to me when i couldnt do my homework as smoothly as i thought i would.
And also having a hard time understanding my mechanics teacher's teaching.
Last but not least, getting used to all the people that have gone and those who are new.
Most depressingly, having new classmates.

Ryan changed from having EXACTLY the same timetable as i have to having NOT EVEN ONE same class this year. ._.
I am stuck with Howe, Hup Eu, Phillip and Teresa for Chemistry, Physics, Further Pure and Core Maths.
Not even one class with my housemates and Wei Chen until Jocelyn had a change of timetable.
So she will be keeping me company for Further Pure.
I have Bunga, Pintu, Empat, and Cantik the F4's for my Decision1 class.
Which gives me an attack of nerves in and before class.
Botlhe and me has the exactly same timetable as i do, but he has IELTS class when i have study hall and he doesnt have Decision with me.
I have ONLY TWO study halls.

I am getting more and more quiet in class, EXCEPT having to answer Howe and HupEu's random questioning.
At this rate, the teacher will think that i am very talkative because they tend to ask me in the middle of the teaching. -.-
But HupEu is nice to me since we actually talked a little during summer break.
So he sometimes look out for me, so that i am fine in class.

It is now slightly under 10degrees in Northampton.
Think i will be starting to use my scarves soon (:

The feeling of not being a part of what i used to belong, is unusually awful.
I initially didnt mind it.
Because i thought the one who was editing the video didnt know me.
But it turned out to be something else.
The two person that seemed to cherish me the most forgot about me.
I wouldnt have been so angry until he keep insisting it is his fault.
So yes, i take it as it was his fault then.
But really, i wasnt at all mad.
Because since very long ago, i knew that i will never last here.
I did not have a talent to be like all of them.
I accepted this fact.

So it is perfectly alright to watch from afar.
To give the minimum support i could have offered.
To be the outside help.
Taking note the 'outside'.

Wednesday, September 5, 2012 '

This was supposed to be my laptop background.

-Just for the sake of updating...

Will update more tmr.