Wednesday, December 28, 2011 '

More than any other thing in this world,

I dread being ignored by a friend the most.

It might meant how much i annoyed, pissed him or her off.

And what i have done to actually make that person ignore me.

It's not like i should really give a damn about what they are thinking about me.

It's just that i really really do treasure friendship :|

Since always

I was never the one you care for the most

I cant say that i dont feel jealous

And i cant say that i dont feel that it is unfair

But i really really accept the fact

That i will never be the one that needs care

But the one who is always responsible and steady

Forget it

To show you my weakness would be the last thing i ever thought of.

More than the one who stands out in everyone's eyes

I rather be the one who knows the truth to everything

And the one who people can confide in.

Tho i do believe a slight change would bring me more joy

It would be sure to seem weird to you.

Does this mean that i should never be the weak?

I knew you could see the tiredness in her.

But am i not allowed to rest too?

I accept the saying that you care for me in another way

Totally different way

But i also accept the fact that i was never the pretty one.

Honestly

I can be as realistic as you are.

Saturday, December 24, 2011 '

I have a lovely bunch of girlfriends and a group of playful boyfriends (:

But you know, you guys will never love me as much as i love all of you.

Whether it was planned or not, you guys gave me a great time :D

All the hugs, shoulders that you lent me to sleep on, massages, laughter, fun times, the kiss on the cheek (PuiMun Lim!! xD), chocolate, chips (gave me ulcer too :P) are something that i may forget

But i will never forget the comfort that you gave me (:

I never did regret loving you all. And i never will.

Considering the difference in time zone

I am still on the move if you are not able to sleep.

So feel free to chat with me :D

I have to admit TeckKuan's hug was the one i liked most because he hugged me well like a real buddy (:

And also coach's, which he refused to release for quite sometime, and people stared ._.

Munmun's peck on the cheek and moving her sleeping bag close to me at night :D And Vincent's neck squeeze and group hug which blocked the whole road and who choked but calm like hell (; Zheng Yi who never failed to pay me attention whenever we met during the station games and tells me to sleep when he was driving. E-Lynn who always always manages my fringe and fell which caused many serious rumours. JiaJun who is forever crazy at night and hard to wake in the morning and tells me who my future sister-in-law might be. XiongJack who jokes and warns me at the same time and left his team as soon as he joined -.- and forever sweet-talking the girlfriend and sent me a photo of himself to keep xD Sinwei who was my girlfriend for a few seconds when we first left the mall and a brother-in-law who was all the time forced to join Asgardia and full of dancing muscles (:

3 more days of memories to add to my collection.

But also, none of them with you :(

Friday, December 23, 2011 '

Just got back from JOHOR!!!

Cant say that it is one of the best camp, but i gotta say we were quite carefree :D

Didnt want to join at first, but was forced to ._.

I'm quite glad that Wei Chyuan was in the same group as me (:

So he did tried to help me during the breaking ice game.

I lost terribly bcoz my team guide introduced me loudly to everyone but never told me their names -.-

I admit im the worst, because i didnt join most of the group activities...

We were busy practising our 'Wedding Dress' performance.

One of the most funny things that my coach said was,

"Remember, this is a dance performance! Not a diabolo performance!"

(twirling the diabolo and started practising :D)

What i meant is, it was a diabolo performance, only that we used a different concept, full of dance steps and repetitious (:

He said it so seriously that i tried so hard not to laugh.

I super LOVED the performance and deeply disappointed with myself.

And i even hid myself behind Vincent for a few seconds xD

And the school! So huge o.o

I always got lost ._. which aint a good thing.

And we get to sleep together again!! (:

Best part of all.

Played till 5am for the second night, and skipped breakfast and morning exercise time :D

Our room-key-holder which is also my team guide must be so pissed :P

And we slept alternately, as in boy-girl-boy-girl-boy xD

So lucky that the old coach didnt find out :s

We made a huge ruckus in the car while going there.

But most of us K.O-ed coming back xD

I tried so hard not to fall asleep, but someone's pendrive is actually FULL of slow love songs -.-

So i waited till someone is awake only then i tried to sleep.

But somehow it was noisy.

So i K.O-ed after i took my bath at home (:

Yea, i admit im not at all sociable.
But people notices looks more than anything.
Fine by me.
You people go look for your lengluiis
I stay with my lonely self (:

Wednesday, December 7, 2011 '

Just keep following the heartlines on your hand~

Damn addicted to this song for no reason :D

Do you know the kind of feeling when you get something that you really wanted and really like from a whole bunch of friends, close or not at the meantime?

I got my THIRD graduation present plus farewell present plus birthday present today! (:
RIGHT after my outing AFTER chinese paper :D

I could say that i feel disappointment, happy, grateful, touched, sad, and angry all at the same time, just because of what all these people wrote to me (:

I don't know if i could bring it over, since there is a weight limit, but i will be sure to treasure it.

I think i have gotten tired of re-reading your message, but there is something that i will never stop being grateful for. Thank you :P

A little something for you. Don't laugh!! (:

Monday, December 5, 2011 '

My Timberland shoes! :D
But i have to admit that im actually loving it :D
There was an even more rugged one but that one wasnt heat insulated :\
Oh well. This is not bad too (:

Got myself a Pre-U body check up that day.
And got myself jabbed 3 times ._.
One of the is the TB skin test, and the nurse would have to measure the size of the lump o.o
So omg, all the results coming out on Monday D:

I hope im healthy enough :X

Saturday, December 3, 2011 '

How, how can it be
That a love carved out of caring
Fashioned by fate
Could suffer so hard
From the games played once too often
But making mistakes
Is a part of life's imperfections
Born of the years
Is it so wrong
To be human after all

Drawn into the stream
Of undefined illusion
Those diamond dreams
They can't disguise the truth
That there is something about you, baby, so right
I wouldn't be without you, baby, tonight

If ever our love was concealed
No one can say that we didn't feel
A million things and a perfect dream of life
Gone, fragile but free
We remain tender together
If not so in love
It's not so wrong
We're only human after all

These changing years
They add to your confusion
Oh and you need to hear
The time that told the truth

Because there's something about you, baby, so right
I couldn't live without you, baby, tonight

And that there's something about you
Yeah
And I couldn't live without you tonight