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Sunday, May 17, 2009 '

honestly, it is hopeless.

forget it, nothing is going to change to become better.
u noe why??
this scene that replays every saturday,
and it is the normal thing to happen.
im currently so pissed by a whole group of people sitting down playing rubik cube.
i noe i noe, its the IN thing now...
so what?! im OUT for sure.

for once, i hate everyone.
everyone except jen tat, e-lynn and pui mun and "ah gui"
seriously, why on earth did i apologized for nothing that day?
why isit that i have and want to care?
why did i choose such a hard path for myself?
why isit that i let go so easily?
why on earth am i so dumb?
i hate myself.
why are you all so blind?!
why is this everything so UNFAIR?!
why isit that u can never see wat my mind is thinking??
why isit that u are so selfish?
why isit that no one understands me?
i hate u all.

no matter how hard i try...
there is no way i can be cheerful in front of u all anymore.
yea, i always smile, but i did not smile from my heart.
u can never see the emotions that i cover so well underneath it.
u never tend to see through it.
becoz u expected me to be wat im outside.
i tried not to affect you with my feelings...
u all take me as if im ok with ur doing.
u all are fools.

this is already my limit.
there is no way i can tolerant with anything anymore.
why didnt timothy come today??
he will understand me...the only guy who will.
but if he did, he may see me crush to pieces...
im a little glad he did not turn up...
so that i din colapse in front of them...

im 100% sure this is not the end...
the same thing will turn up again and again...
but how am i to bear with it??
do i really have to cry in front of them?

there...here is wat i can do with typing.
somehow there is still alot in my heart...words can never describe it
this is only like my diary.
but i noe nothing will change.
coz u all dunno how i feel....
coz u all can never read my heart.
coz u all think everything is not ur fault.
coz u all reckon that im the one who did wrong.
coz im the dumb one.
im the victim...

wat am i to do??
everything is hopeless and useless...

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I, Me, Myself

Jia Vei =D also known as vei or anything u wanna call me
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Last update: 1st May 2009

all A's in major exam

happiness n smiles forever!

a new phone

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bags

more nice books

another diabolo performance...

dont hate me

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